the standalone film & the installation in real life
"words you've never said"
a raw audio visual installation that screams about paternal care, domestic abuse, intergenerational trauma, and growing up in poverty. spiraling through an intense episode of emotional stages of denial, anger, grief & acceptance made my own personal paintings & photos selfportraits.
accepting the fact and the pain of always longing for the words of affirmation and love but never receiving it. the words are chosen by myself and interviewing people who feel the same, but would like to stay anonymous.
filled with expressions of visuals about my own thoughts and pain about words of affection & the lack of acknowledgement and emotional support that i wanted to hear, but were never uttered.
photography & paintings edited to fit the narrative and feel, with projection mapping on the portrait consisting of visually intense imagery about grief, anger, sadness & acceptance with audio telling a story about the words that have never been said.
the audio is in essence a talk with myself escalating through different stages of emotions, from denial, to anger, to sadness, to grief & finally acceptance. accompanied by psychedelic visuals that visualise how my thoughts work when in this state, visuals that are almost like bleeding out, angry and regretful about my emotions and thoughts.
